One way to feel good

Ehem. Takmo cakap omputih la kali ni.. Just nak share ape yang jadi masa berhenti kat R&R Tapah baru-baru ni.. singgah dengan niat nak solat Isyak, so sampai sampai jer terus menuju ke surau perempuan.. Fuhh.. Punyela ramai makcik2, akak2 and adik2 seislam nak mengadap yang Maha Esa.. walaupun terpaksa bersesak-sesak, tapi rase excited sebab ramai yang datang solat.. Kadang-kadang kalau masuk surau and tengok lengang jer, mmg rase sedikit tak best.. Time-time gini mmg ramai yg tengah berebut telekung.. Lucky me, bawak telekung sendiri.. Lepas habis solat, tengah lipat2 telekung ade cik adik datang tanye,

"Ni telekung surau ke? Nak boleh?"

maka dengan selambanya aku jawab..

"eh, tak.. ni akak bawa sendiri, sori ye"

dengan muke kachiwa, adik tu pun beralih kat sorang akak depan aku and tanye soalan yg sama..

"Ni telekung akak ke?"

akak tu pun dengan selambanye jugak menjawab..

"A'ah telekung akak, nah amikla guna. Dah guna nanti tinggal je kat sini.. akak wakaf jela.. kat sini cam kurang telekung jer"

Cube teka ape perasaan aku? Adeh rase cam kene tampar kuat2.. Malunye kat Allah, malunye kat diri sendiri, malunye kat Rasullulah saw.. Tercengang sambil maki hamun diri sendirik.. Tak gune betol aku ni, bagi jela.. orang tu kan musafir cam kau jugak, bukan jadik miskin pun kalo ko bagi die gune.. Klu tak nak tunggu die, tinggal jela telekung tu kat situ.. tak belajar agame ke ape, sedekah tu kan pahale  berpanjangan.. raser nak sekeh diri sendiri laju2 kat situ jugak.. Seminit lepas tu, adek girl lain datang tanye, dengan tanpe berfikir sesaat terus reflex impulse aku bagi die telekung pink ak yang dah siap berlipat tu.. and larik laju2 dari surau tu dengan rase puas and lega.. 

So pengajarannya, kawan2.. jom kite memperbanyakkan telekung kat surau2.. masuk surau time takde orang, pandang kiri kanan, letak telekung kat rak, pastu larik.. sedekah ni feel die lagi best bila org tak tau.. tp takyahla setiap kali pergi surau sedekah telekung.. kang pape kedane pulak ekau.. Okbai.

Revamping My Life

I think I really need to revamp my life in total. I am not happy with my current situation. Especially financially. I just came back from a 5 day vacation in South Korea. It was fun and all, but still, lack of cash in hand, restrict many activities I've been hoping to do there. Yes, of course, that includes shopping.. :( 

I am demanding an income of minimum 10k and above, but I am not happy with myself. I feel I did not work hard enough. Yes, WORK HARD is the word. Hell to the phrase, "work smart not work hard".. Albert Einstein himself work hard enough before he managed to carve his name as world genius. I feel terribly sorry to my family, especially my dad and my dear baby. They both work like crazy night and day. But their capability is of course limited with this enormous family with millions of liabilities.

In Korea, while wandering around Myeongdong street in the freezing weather, I thought to myself, how much of this life we would lose only because the lack of cash. Because the life has so much to offer. I am living in Malaysia, and what about the rest of the world that I haven't stepped my feet on? Don't I want to see and experience them all? We don't deserve this. We are given the chance to live this life for once (well unless if you believe in reincarnation..) so we gotta live the life to the fullest. Spend time with our parents in the best resort the world could probably offer, spend more time with our kids at their favorite theme parks, buy our loved ones gifts that will bring tears to their eyes.. And the only thing that separate us from these beautiful dreams is MONEY. 

In front of Anyang Station, Gyeonggi-do, Seoul, South Korea
*Debut picture of me in this blog =) *

I am very glad to be born a Muslim. I very am and I thank God for this greatest gift. But I don't think I will be able to present myself a successful Muslim if I am incapable of helping those in need especially my family. I don't think I will be a good Muslim if I did not work hard enough. These days I feel so hopeless and feel I am back again to the lowest point of my life.. BUT!!!! I PROMISE you my love, every single soul in my family and every one on earth that I will emerge as somebody everyone can depend on. Ameen